My Life As the Favorite

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

So I'm miserable as many of you probably think I always am. I talked to Andy last night and is unhappy because he feels like he's left his friends behind since he's been with me. I know that that may be true in some cases. I also know that many people tend to do those things without realizing it. Its really bothering him that this has happened and to add to that he doesn't feel that we're any closer than when we first began dating. Honestly I don't know that I think all of that is really what's happening. I think he's a point in his life where he's gotten a little freaked out that so much around him has changed. It doesn't matter what I think unfortunately. This is going to be an awful blog. I really was extremely happy with him and it kills me that its over. I never had someone that made me not worry or could make me smile so much. I'm just so exhausted by dating. I don't want to start over at all. The thought of finding someone else and even trying to care seems so extreme to me. I hate that I can't be angry at him for anything since that would make it easier to deal with. He's such a great guy and I'm afraid I'll never see him again. I've never really been one to be friends after a breakup. I don't let go very easily of the status we once had. I'm so unhappy right now I can't handle it. I don't like that this is so out of my hands. I can't stand that I'm SO emotional. We weren't together for more than six months, but I'm completely stuck. I've been doing the whole memory flashbacks in my mind and its driving me nuts. I keep feeling like if I just explain to him how much I care about him it would fix things. I'm sorry for bringing down the day. That relationship was just something that I was really excited and happy about. I in no way saw this coming.


At 12:08 PM, Blogger Steve / Dad said...

Oh Katie, I am so sorry. Your Mom and I were both so pleased that you were such a happy person when you last came home. You have seen this before and I know you are strong enough to pull through it. Re-focus yourself on school or work or whatever your whim is so that you don't just sit around feeling bad. If I can help even by just a shoulder for you you know I want to be there for you.

At 12:20 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Katie, I'm so sorry. I think I know how you feel and it just plain sucks. That's probably putting it mildly. If you know of anything I can do, let me know. I don't have any different advice than what Daddy said. Maybe buy a big thing of biscotti and dip it in Nutella. ;) Or, you can do this, and I highly recommend it, get a huge bucket filled with all different flavors of ice cream from Baskin Robbins and put hot fudge on top.

I know neither of those things will really make this go away, but maybe they'll help a little in the short term.

At 4:35 PM, Blogger StephM said...

Katie, I'm sorry too. I'm with Laura, ice cream can't hurt, can it? I'm hear if you need to talk. Anytime at all. Or just come on over! Or we'll (or I) will go there. I also agree with Daddy. You're alot stronger than I think you think you are. Set your mind on something else for awhile and you'll pull through. We love you and we're here if you need anything at all!

At 4:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

You do remember there is that someone waiting to meet you in Atlanta!!

We can gather the ranks and surround you with more "togetherness" than you can stand. I keep saying we are a force to be reckoned with and we are here for you.



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